Re-evaluating

A lot of things are happening inside my head and heart right now. 

And I am taking inventory of our lives.

Thusfar, I have been a fly by the seat of your pants kind of Mama.  I don't think this is going to continue working for us.  For one thing we will be homeschooling next year...

And my husband will be gone to training for 3 months.

And I REALLY don't want to be crazy while he's gone.  I am pretty sure a routine would help me keep my sanity.  A flow.  A rhythm, so to speak.  So if I you don't see me so much out in public, please don't take it personally.  I am not being anti-social.

I am being a homemaker. 

Because this is my profession.

I am

Hello my name is Hanna... and I am a Christian.  Jesus is my homeboy.  Who's my daddy?  God!!  And also the Holy Spirit dwells in me. 

Right now GOD is doing some pretty cool things in my heart. 

I have been a Christian for about 5 years now...  Yes, I made a decision to accept Christ's sacrifice. 

Salvation. 

I was on fire for Christ for about the first 6 months... and slowly... it kind of went on the back burner.  I became lukewarm for God.  And funny thing is, I thought God was just being lukewarm for me. 

Oh boy, was I wrong.  Well, recently with all the crazy burned arm drama, I decided I NEEDED to pray.  Probably for the first time in... well since the ambulance ride with the crazy burned arm drama, but before that I don't know when I had prayed last...  So anyhow, I prayed something like this: 

Lord,  I want to see you.  I want to hear you.  I want to know you.  I don't want to be lukewarm.  Please, Lord, work on my heart.  Help me be better for you.  Reveal yourself to me Lord.  In Christ's name.  Amen.

Did I mention that I am going to an AMAZING Christian Book Study at my friend Jocelyn's church.  (Jocelyn's another one of those people God likes to hit me upside the head with... or smack me on the ass  tushy with, whichever.)  So, Forgotten God by Francis Chan has been one of those faith transforming studies for me.  I am learning things I never knew were possible.  Go on over to Jocelyn's blog and read about all the cool things that God is teaching us through Francis Chan's books. 

Go on.  Check out her blog.  It's okay, I'll wait...

Okay, so, here is the REALLY cool part. 

God.  THE GOD OF THE UNIVERSE is revealing himself to me!  ME!!!   From answered prayers, to victory over sin, to smackin' me upside the head with his humor presence.

Sooooooo, to make a long story a little bit longer...  Tonight I let the dogs out to do their doody duty before bedtime.  And the moon is full... and it is kind of playing peek-a-boo with the clouds.  And I was just struck... STRUCK with the breathtaking beauty of it.

I standing there looking at God's creation and just soaking it in and reveling in it... 
REALLY though, I was wishing I had a camera, but my husband took it to the training he's away on.   

Anyhow, There were a LOT of clouds and moonlight and beauty and stuff.  AND it kind of took me a minute before I noticed... 

Right there, with the way the moon was shining through the clouds...  were the illuminating words...

I am.

How's that for revelation, Hanna?

Sewing, vacations and ambulance rides

Have you missed me?  It's been a couple days or weeks since my last post.  And if you don't know me in real life, no worries.  I am still alive!  I've just been slightly busy with the ambulance rides and the sewing and what not.  I was working up a storm making some creations to take with us on our vacation to the sunny south.  Oh and Cole decided to take swim in my steaming hot fresh off the stove bowl of Tomato Soup...  So we got our first trip in an ambulance.  2nd degree burns on his arm.  It was no fun... and also BAD MOMMY!  Maybe I'll write more about it someday, but today I just won't...  

SO, last night we got back from the beach vacation!!!  Woo hoo!  I am tired.  Vacationing with kids is hard work.  We all missed our beds. 

Anyhow, now it is that time of year when I get super busy with the weeding and the seeding and the digging and the watering and the gardening and such.  I love spring.  I wish I had as much energy to put into my house as I put outside my house with the growing of flowers and food. 

Tomorrow I am bringing Cole for a follow up with the Burn Specialist.  (He's healing fabulously, this is just a followup for safety.)  Then we are going to a great place called Miller Nurseries to get a couple fruit trees for the yard.  Woo hooo and Yay for Spring!  It's Spring!!  It's Spring!  Spring is finally here!!